If I retreat back to my own shell it's not your fault I just need space it's nothing personal against you
that i need to be told if i did something wrong because im not a mind reader and can't always tell whether people are upset with me or not. also that i only consistently talk to people im extremely close with because of anxiety and trust issues but that doesnt mean i dont care about other people
that i dont like being repeatedly told what to do, it stresses me out cause i feel pressured and overwhelmed
mm. that i'm not just a tool to be used. i realize when i'm being used. and i do nothing about it because it scares me. but i hate realizing the only reason certain people talk to me is because they want something.
i’m always tired and i’m sorry if i ever sound disinterested when i’m talking to you i’m probably just sleepy and having trouble coming up with a single coherent thought💔
i feel a fundamental disconnect between me and everyone around me so i'm overcompensating by being a tryhard funnyman. i crave being taken seriously and yet i present myself as a joke
That I’m not ignoring you I’m Just ReallY Busy IRL. And if I don’t know you well, I am hesitant to talk to you at times .
the reason why i connect with roses when it's trauma related stuff. the reason why i kind of hate roses it's because someone people showed me the dark path of life by throwing me by a rosebud. it was like my first day of primary in a recess. i will not forget about it.